Monday was a rough day.
I didn’t have a Monday blog post to put up so I started the day in a funk. I felt bad for letting you guys down and vowed to have everything ready for Tuesday no matter what.
Then my kids decided to test me. The words “please sit down and do your work” must translate to “run around the table until you want to puke!” in homeschoolese because that’s what they heard. One child especially pushed every button possible. I sent her to her room with her vocabulary work and told her not to come down until it was done.
I was so mad.
An hour later I found out that she had been sitting in her room playing Minecraft on a device instead of doing her work.
I got madder.
Then I decided to catch up on the fall crafts that I’m way behind on for this blog.
It turns out that all 3,562 hot glue guns that I owned have mysteriously grown legs and walked away. I can picture my kids opening the door and yelling to them, “run free!”.
We finally found one hot glue gun but no hot glue gun sticks. I was so mad at this point that I just wanted the kids to go outside and play (except the one still grounded to her room) so I could sit down and take deep breaths.
Of course this is when the one upstairs decided to take treks downstairs every 5 minutes to see if I had changed my mind about her vocabulary work being done or not.
No I had not changed my mind.
At this point my neck and head were pounding from a major sinus attack and I was just mad at everything. The dog was breathing too heavy, the cat was being too lovable, one kid did their classic “the dishes are still dirty in the dishwasher” trick in hopes that she wouldn’t have to put them up and I was out of sinus medicine.
The day was bad.
Dinner was a flunk and the two kids used so much soap at bath time that I smelled it from down the hall!
At this point you could have renamed me Alexander because this was a no good, very bad day.
This day was supposed to be good! I had spent time in the word, prayed, showered and even brushed my hair! The weather was gorgeous and it was just calling our names!
But the day was bad and I letting it wreck my everything.
Then I saw the message on my phone – one of my family members had passed away – and the day changed at the same time that perspective hit.
Yes my day with my children was rough but my cousin lost her mom last night.
In all my anger at the day for little things, I’m sure she would give everything to have one more day with her mom.
I wanted to spend time outside yesterday with the kids, enjoying the weather, but I didn’t because I was too busy being moody and grumpy. I said the word “I” a thousand times yesterday.
I was mad. I was having a sinus attack. I couldn’t find stuff that I needed. I. I. I. I. I.
But what about her? What about them? What about my family that needs support now? What about my kids that need a mom to laugh with? What about my dad who loved his sister so dearly and needs me to show my girls that legacy of loving your sister so strongly that few will understand?
Today I will spend time with my kids without worrying about the small things. This week I will hug my dad and spend time with him and my sisters (who are all amazing).
Please keep my family – my cousins and their children in your prayers this week. My aunt leaves behind a beautiful legacy of loving her family. We have a lot of work to do to carry it on.