Let’s just Chat
I have another post full of kids crafts to put up but let’s just chat for a minute. Why? Because today just kicked my butt and I’m too worn out to do much more than just talk to you guys.
If you follow me on Facebook then you’ve probably have seen some messages about my sisters puppy being sick. He was very sick with pneumonia but he got over it and everything looked great. Then today they found out he was sick because he has distemper and there’s a 50/ 50 chance that he’s going to get through it. They are heartbroken. Some of you are probably questioning why it’s such a big deal. My family are avid animal lovers. I would seriously live on a farm surrounded by every animal possible if I wouldn’t have married a city slicker. So I’ve accepted life with our dogs, cat and guinea pigs. My sister and her husband are the same way and in the short time they have had this puppy they have fallen in love with it. They adopted him from the shelter after a very long search for the perfect dog for their needs and had envisioned a great life with him. But most importantly I’m sad because my sister is sad. I hate it when my family members have hard times. To hear my sister be sad and heartbroken is heartbreaking to me. I wish I could fix the puppy but I can’t so it’s in God’s hands, which I trust fully even if it means that it doesn’t end how we want it to end.
On top of that there’s a family that means a lot to us that is having a very hard time. The mom of the family babysat our oldest girl while I worked when she was just an infant. This mom saw Grace’s first steps and treated her like the princess that Grace thinks she really is. When her oldest daughter became a teenager she also started babysitting for all three of our girls. A few weeks ago it was discovered that the oldest daughter had a tumor on her brainstem and the surgery to remove it just didn’t give the outcome that I guess I expected. Seeing what she’s going through now even after having a lot of the tumor removed has just been hard. Today she got sent from the rehab hospital back to the main hospital with a small set back. That was just another kick against a little bit of sadness. But once again I just have to trust God to meet those needs.
Then I’m pretty sure that the resident three year old is getting sick because she was a terror today. Nothing would please her. She screamed and yelled when I offered her breakfast, which is her favorite time of day and then she didn’t want anything to do with her favorite Jessie pajamas. It was frustrating because it was a ton of crying with no solutions, at all.
Finally as I was talking with a dear friend tonight I realized that a lot of even appearing confident women have real fears and self doubt. I know I have it! I think we all have fears of rejection and doubt but we hide it because that will only make the supposed rejection worse. It was eye opening to see how we can all as women better support our friends and other women that we don’t know that well. Stop playing clicky mom groups and start inviting other women in. I’m really excited to have dinner with this friends soon and see how we can work to support other women to come to terms with the life they are living surrounded by fear as opposed to life without fear and confident in who you are as you are.
So there we are. No flashy pictures, nothing that would make this count as a really outstanding blog post, just me telling you my heart and honestly saying that life is not rainbows and perfectly decorated living rooms with perfectly adorned kids. What you see online is not always how it is. Be happy where you are or work at being strong enough to change it to where you want to be.
Nicki Woo says
My oh my. we are on the same wave length today. Living parrallel lives, me thinks.
It aint all lollipops and gumdrops is it? Well, that is what makes us really appreciate the good times. How can you appreciate the light if there is no dark?
Kathy Penney @ Sparkles And A Stove says
Girl don’t even get me started on clicky mom groups and women not supporting women. But then there are some nice ones too. 🙂 And sometimes it’s nice to just chat.